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I'm Sad. I've been sad for a couple days. Trying not to slip into a funk. I miss some people that are very important to me.  I feel alone. I'm sure its just me "re-adjusting" to moving. again. I haven't not worked in years. It's hard not having my own money in my own pocket. I have a shit ton of things to do and unpack but I have no desire or motivation. I'm hoping once mother nature gets her crap together, so will I.  Should I even post this? Do I pretend everything is wonderful like I always do? Give *you* pep talks when I don't get any? Make  *you* laugh and smile when I cant find my own these days?

I really don't like:
- Karen and Becky being 3 hours away and that life goes on without me
- not being able to wear my heels
- not having a reason to get dressed up & go out with my girls

- not having my deck

- fighting for computer time since only one is set-up

- not being able to run into QUIKTRIP
- having no grocery store in town
- that I cant buy my weekly People magazine
- that I cant listen to my JOHNNY DARE every morning
- not being able to go out for breakfast
- not going to the casino's
- that there isn't a Gordman's close
- that I miss my co-workers from Gordman's
- and hearing coyotes outback

but I LOVE:

- that its so quiet I can hear frogs in the distance.

- I can walk around the farm after dark and not be scared in the least.

- that each one of the 4 of us has our own TV!

- and my kids absolutely LOVE being here.

- of course, my goats! 

- that I can sleep with windows open again

- and the daffodils have popped up.

- that I can see a million stars again.

- finding treasures to decorate with.

- that everyone is happy we are back.

- burning whatever I can get my hands on in the burn barrel

- and that I have a streetlight in my yard 

Ok, enough of the pity party. I am grateful. Grateful for kids who love me. Grateful for a house to live in and land to play with. Food in the fridge and a sink full of dirty dishes that means we ate well. Laundry baskets over flowing because we had fun and got dirty trying to build another tire swing, or because a happy, ecstatic puppy jumped up on us. I am ready for spring. Ready for dark country nights with a fire and good people. Ready for friends and family to come for the weekend. And while I am being honest.. *I* am ready for a girls get-away weekend in Kansas City =)