test... I repeat this is only a test... LOL

Brothers.....

Pains in the asses, when growing up, protectors and best friends your adult lives. I truly believe mine would kill for me if I asked them to. One of my brothers, my baby brother Bobby,  is having his second crainiotomy (brain surgery) today in Milwaukee Wisconsin, because his first doctor messed up and he was in worse shape than before. I wish I was there... I am having a hard time breathing today, cant think straight and I just need a hug.

A day in my life...

Since I have no job, yet, these animals keep me busy and sane. They love me unconditionally and what a great feeling. NO CONDITIONS. "Me! Me! Me! Pet ME first! Hey! Its MY turn! Me next! Me next! Aaaaaah.

Frankenstein and a hitch hiker

Annie

Ozzy, Fantasia, Nikki Sixx, Tommy Lee, Brian Johnson and Bon Scott

The Guineas... Guineas make very good watch dogs and will let you know if something different is going on.  They are known to be good tick and bug eaters and will let you know if an intruder is around.  They are ugly and the DUMBEST animal you will ever encounter! We have 6 of them and they are together constantly. If one or 2 happen to get separated from the others I can hear them from inside the house. Of course I go out to see what is 'wrong' and its usually that they are on wrong sides of the fence. So while 4 or 5 of them are "talking/yelling" at the stragglers, those 1 or 2 are "talking"/yelling" back. Here's what I think they are saying: "Hey! Get back over here on this side!" "I dont know how!" 'Run back and forth along the perimeter and I think a hole will just open up!" I"ve been doing that for an hour now and nothings happening!" UGH! They forget they can FLY!  So.... I turn into Guinea wrangler! I corner them and they eventually fly up and over! And they are all happy and squawking. and they are LOUD! and STOOOOOPID!

The kids have their own turkeys. They were adorable as chicks but now they're really starting to look like turkeys and learning how to gobble which is hilarious! They stick together like peanut butter and jelly. We found out why, ones a girl and the others a boy! One is white and the other is bronze and now we'll see if they can interbreed... our luck they will! LOL

Giblet and Turkey Jerky

and last, but not least, My Annie, If I could, I'd put her in a diaper, bring her in at night and let her sleep with me!

Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size but when I start to tell them, they think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms, the span of my hips, The stride of my step, the curl of my lips. I walk into a room just as cool as you please, And the fellows stand or fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, a hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, the swing in my waist, and the joy in my feet.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch my inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's in the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, 

The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style.

Now you understand just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, the bend of my hair, the palm of my hand, the need of my care, 'Cause I'm a woman. Phenomenal woman, That's me

babies

Thursday, April 12th, Frankenstein finally had her babies! 2 twin girls! I'd been gone all day and came home around 4-ish. I saw my brother-in-law was here but no biggie, he drops by alot. I came in and sat at the computer he saw me through the window and he yelled to me to bring a couple beers and my camera and come out back, there was something I had to see... I thought "come get your own damn beer" but since he never "tells" me to do anything, I did. I walk back there and I see one of them instantly and I squeal! clap my hands!, jump up and down!, giddiness! I walk inside and peek and there is another! Just 2 thank goodness. I've named them Joan Jett (Jetty) as she has a black head and Lita Ford. I ooh and aaah, hold, snuggle and love on them and left so momma could bond with her babies. Can you say ADORABLE??!

I get home from Kansas City and instantly see a new goat and she has 2 babies, also girls that are about a month old. Can't get to close to them yet, but I WILL!! (LOL) Inside the barn is ANOTHER baby. She is also about a month old. Her momma had triplets and rejected her so every 2  hours I am bottle feeding her and she LOVES me! I've named her "Annie" as in Little orphan Annie. Original huh? haha! But she even just looks like an Annie. SO sweet! SO loving! SO cuddly, she loves to just snuggle in the crook of my neck and I have sat out there for hours with her just letting her sleep in my arms. I love this little girl SO much...

My weekend

► HINDER◄

►HALESTORM◄

►ALTER BRIDGE◄

►DISTURBED◄

► SEVEN DUST◄

► STONE SOUR◄

► PAPA ROACH◄ !!

... I'll NEVER forget! 

55,000 people. Beer, boobies, head bangin, & best friends. I smelled more
weed than I did cigarettes and it was common for someone to tap you on the shoulder and just pass you one. Wow. We got there at 11:00 and claimed our ground for the day. Becky brought a large sleeping bag that we spread out and we sat and laid and chillaxed!. There were 2 main stages and everyone I wanted to see was on the same stage so I didn't move from my spot all day. Most people walked back and forth between the 2 stages. The bands played 45 minutes each. First "my" stage and then the following stage, so it alternated like that all day. When everyone left the main stage "our stage" the space cleared out and we could spread the blanket out again to sit and relax those 45 minutes. When it was time to switch, EVERYONE came running and up we stood for those 45 minutes...scrunched together like sardines and I got hit on most of the day! LOL. So back and forth we went. Sit for 45, on our feet for 45. and it was AWESOME! I had one drink and had to venture clear across the park for a bathroom trip so that cured me right quick that I wasn't drinking anymore! (and having to go over that way again!! LOL!!) Show was over at midnight and it was time for the fireworks to start. We walked to Crown Center to call our cab to pick us up. (We were SMART and didnt drive there! LOL) It couldnt have been a better day. It was about 55 degrees and at 6:00 on the dot, the sun popped out! My 1st trip to Rockfest but it wont be my last! ... and next year, I may come home with beads well earned!

Besties: Karen, me, April and Bex

The first man I ever loved

Dad, you’re like the sun to me,
a sure thing, always there,
beaming light and warmth on my life.
Whatever is good in me today,
I owe to your wisdom, your patience,
your strength, your love.
You taught me by example,
as a role model,
how to be my own person,
how to believe in myself,
instructing me without controlling me.
Even when we disagreed,
you held us together,
so our bond was never broken.
I understand what you did for me,
and I am so grateful that I have you
as my solid foundation, my rock.
I respect you, I admire you, I love you,
my guiding light, my father.

lets make a memory...

Have you ever had such a wonderful, life is now better, moment that you just cant stop replaying it over and over and over in your mind? Its all you can think about no matter how hard you try and stop the video loop from playing? You have such a connection with another human being? No words are needed? Just being there? You feel SO alive and SO special? Good! I have too. and I crave more.

Michelle, My Belle

I got to spend a week with my daughter. I hadnt seen her in over 5 years. I missed her and ached for her. and I am reminiscing...

It was Sunday, December 14, 1980. We had gone out to eat Mexican food and to see a movie, I cant for the life of me remember what it was.  During the movie I started getting stomach pains and attributed it to the beans I had eaten. I was 15. I didnt know better. At about 2 that morning my water broke. I was scared.  I was about to grow up very fast. I wasnt ready. I didnt want to do this. Can you just give me a c-section and we can all go home? No. (You made your bed, now its time to lay in it.) Ya. Thanks. I was in hard labor all night and all the next day. Can I have something for the pain? No. You are so young. We dont know how this delivery is going to go. Ya thanks. (Tsk, tsk, a baby having a baby. She doesnt even have her drivers license yet.) My mommy rubs my back the entire time with that sad, where did I go wrong, look in her eyes.

Its finally time to deliver. NOOO, I dont want to do this! I'm sorry! This cant be happening! I dont even have my drivers license yet!...and off we go. PUSH-PUSH-PUSH! You CAN DO THIS! (maybe this will hurt enough she wont be so stupid again) PUSH-PUSH-PUSH, I can see the babys head! PUSH-PUSH-STOP! Hold on a second....ok, Momma, one more, you can do it!  Momma?! OMG! I am about to be somebodies momma....Its a girl Dawn! You got your girl!

Tears. Tears for relief, for pain, tears for life as I knew it was over, tears for the unknown journey I was now beginning.  Tears I had a healthy baby girl and she was looking straight into my eyes. (Now what hotshot?!)

Michelle Amanda. 7 pounds 7 ounces. 7 o'clock on the dot. Too bad I wasnt old enough to buy a lottery ticket. Pure love. Instant love. I'd kill for you love. Wow.

And...I DID it.  She probably saved my life many times over. We grew. We survived. We laughed. We cried. I raised a loving,  compassionate woman, and I am PROUD.

My hearts is so full,  I'm surprised it doesnt burst sometimes