January 31, 2012
purple majesty...
Had it done for my birthday. I absolutely LOVE it! Next week I hope to get my new tattoo...
This is MY year. Big changes. Happiness and thoughts of ME!
January 28, 2012
January 27, 2012
January 26, 2012
January 22, 2012
I promise myself...
To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the future.
To smile and give a smile to everyone I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To believe the whole world is on my side, so long as I'm true to the best that is in me.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the future.
To smile and give a smile to everyone I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To believe the whole world is on my side, so long as I'm true to the best that is in me.
January 21, 2012
January 20, 2012
Harumph
well, as you may have noticed, I haven't written anything in 5 days. I just dont have it in me right now. I dont know why, its just not there. I'll catch them up when the mood strikes...
January 15, 2012
January 15 picture- Technology
I'm not blogging about this. I cant think of anything I want to write or have a picture to share.
...not in the mood anymore anyhow and who really cares?
January 13, 2012
January 12 picture- hands
January 11, 2012
January 11th picture- something old
Hmmmm. I'm old. So here's some old pictures =D
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| daddy taught me to laugh very early on |
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| My first 2 true loves |
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| 8th grade graduation |
January 9, 2012
January 9th picture- Inspiring person
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| Me, Scary and my best friend, Becky at his house |
Mine is my friend, The Scary Guy. In 1975 he began a career in baby portrait photography and later moved on to selling computers in the 1980s and early 90’s. In the mid-90’s he became a tattoo artist and eventually owned 3 tattoo shops in Tucson, AZ. It was at this time that a rival tattoo shop owner took out an add questioning the character of someone with “war-paint facial tattoos” and labeled him a “scary guy”. This motivated him to take the name as his own, He legally changed his name in an Arizona court in 1998 from Earl Kenneth Kaufmann to The Scary Guy, and now focuses on teaching love and acceptance of all people. His mission is to eliminate hate, violence and prejudice worldwide. His audiences consist of both youth and adults, within schools and corporations. His philosophy is that "if someone calls you a 'rotten word' it's their problem not yours, and you choose to accept what they say or not." He has brought his mission to schools, police departments, military organizations, and corporations across the world including: the U.S., U.K., Sweden, Germany, and Luxembourg. I dont get to see him much, but every time he is in Kansas City we make time to get together. My kids LOVE him! The Scary Guy’s program to eliminate hate, violence, and prejudice includes his “seven day and seven night challenge.” He challenges audience members of every age to use positive words and not insult someone for seven whole days and to call them only by their name. If you insult them, you then must apologize. He also asks questions that force audience members to look inside themselves; if people call you names and use bad words towards you it is their problem and not yours as they created it. Dont absorb it, dont react. It is them only trying to get rid of all their negative energy. I refuse to allow them to do that to me anymore. I usually fail the 7 day program on the about the 3rd day and it also made me realize how much I thought and said inside my head!! He also encourages to get and give 16 hugs a day. If we can all do this thing, as hard as it may be at first, the emotional well-being level of the planet will sky-rocket - and bullying would become a thing of the past... it cant hurt - it can do so much good. Hugs work!
January 8, 2012
babies
Twin girls born this morning. First girl came out one leg and head first. Second came out breech. It was the first time actually seeing them be born let alone deliver them. It was awesome! (dont look if you quease easily)
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| Second one is coming |
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| See the little hoof there? |
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| getting her out of the sac |
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| cleaning her up and suctioning her little nose |
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| giving her to momma |
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| Billy wondering whats going on! LOL |
mushroom park
Pretty cool place, Had never been before or even heard of it. I'd like to go back and have a picnic or something there and investigate more. There's 5 acres of amazing rock formations. Not for everyone I suppose, but for me, it equals a trip back. =D
(click on the pictures to see them bigger...)
January 7, 2012
January 6, 2012
January 6th picture -Books-
This doesnt even begin to scratch the surface of my books.
I have 2 very large boxes sitting right beside this FULL of books,
along with the 2 in my bedroom and 4 in the barn.
along with the 2 in my bedroom and 4 in the barn.
January 5, 2012
Welcome to my world.
Fibromyalgics have a different kind of pain that is hard to treat. It is not caused by inflammation like an injury. It's a chronic condition with chronic pain in my muscles and connective tissues (around the joints). It is not a constant ache in one place like a broken bone. It moves around my body daily and hourly and changes in severity and type. Sometimes it is dull and sometimes it is cramping or prickly. Sometimes it's jabbing and excruciating. If Eskimos have a hundred words for snow, fibromyalgics should have a hundred words for pain. Sometimes I just hurt all over like I've been beaten up or run over by a truck. Sometimes I feel too tired to lift up my arm.
Because I feel bad most of the time, I am always pushing myself, and sometimes I just push myself too hard. When I do this, I pay the price. Sometimes I can summon the strength to do something special but I may have to rest for a few days afterwards because my body can only make so much energy. I pay a big price for overdoing it, but sometimes I have to.
My Sleep problems- Sometimes I get really restless and wake up and can't get back to sleep. Sometimes by legs hurt and burn so bad from my restless leg syndrome ( A free perk included with fibro) I lie there and cry and pray to just fall asleep. Fast. (I usually lose the fight and get up to take some pain pills.) Other times I fall into bed and sleep for fourteen hours and still be tired. Some nights I'll toss and turn and not be able to sleep at all. Every little thing will keep me awake. I am not merely tired. I am often in a severe state of exhaustion.
My pain- My pain is not your pain. It is not caused by inflammation. My central nervous system (brain) is somehow supersensitive. Fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way my brain processes pain signals. Taking your arthritis medication will not help me. I cant work my pain out or shake it off. It is not even a pain that stays put. Today it is in my shoulder, my back, my knees, but tomorrow it may be in my foot or even gone. My pain is believed to be caused by improper signals sent to the brain and they are magnified 100x. Every muscle in my body shouts out in pain. I feel as though someone has unplugged my power supply.
My forgetfulness- Those of us who suffer from it call it fibrofog. I may not remember your name, but I do remember you. I may not remember what I promised to do for you, even though you told me just seconds ago. My problem has nothing to do with my age but may be related to sleep deprivation. I do not have a selective memory. On some days, I just don't have any short-term memory at all. I am constantly looking for things. I have no idea where I put down my purse, and I walk into rooms and have no idea why. Casualties are my keys which I lock in my vehicle, my list of things to remember and do, usually stay on the counter when I go out. Even if I put notes around to remind myself of important things, I'm still liable to forget them.
My clumsiness- I dont have the muscle control. If you are behind me on the stairs, please be patient. I take stairwells one step at a time. I have muscle stiffness which is worse in the morning and evenings. Sometimes when I get up out of a chair I feel like I am ninety years old. I may have to ask you to help me up. I'm creaky and I'm klutzy. I trip over things no one can see, I may step on your toes. I cant help it. I bump into the person I am walking with and I drop things and spill things because my fingers are stiff and my coordination is off. I just don't seem to connect the way I should. Hand-eye, foot-eye coordination, it's all off.
My sensitivities- I just can't stand it! "It" could be any number of things: bright sunlight, loud or high-pitched noises especially certain noises like loud television or shrill noises can make me jittery and anxious, odors... FMS has been called the "aggravating everything disorder."
My intolerance- I can't stand heat. Or humidity. I shake uncontrollably when it's cold. I don't tolerate cold, either. They stress me out and make my pain worse and I get exhausted. My internal thermostat is broken, and nobody knows how to fix it.
My depression Yes, there are days when I would rather stay in bed or in the house or die. Your sincere concern and understanding can pull me back from the brink. Your snide remarks can tip me over the edge.
My stress- My body does not handle stress well. Everyday stresses make my symptoms worse and can incapacitate me completely.
I suffer from a chronic pain and fatigue illness with no cure. I can have my good days or weeks or even months. In fact, the good days are what keep me going. I may have Fibro, but I refuse to let in control me. =)
Because I feel bad most of the time, I am always pushing myself, and sometimes I just push myself too hard. When I do this, I pay the price. Sometimes I can summon the strength to do something special but I may have to rest for a few days afterwards because my body can only make so much energy. I pay a big price for overdoing it, but sometimes I have to.
My Sleep problems- Sometimes I get really restless and wake up and can't get back to sleep. Sometimes by legs hurt and burn so bad from my restless leg syndrome ( A free perk included with fibro) I lie there and cry and pray to just fall asleep. Fast. (I usually lose the fight and get up to take some pain pills.) Other times I fall into bed and sleep for fourteen hours and still be tired. Some nights I'll toss and turn and not be able to sleep at all. Every little thing will keep me awake. I am not merely tired. I am often in a severe state of exhaustion.
My pain- My pain is not your pain. It is not caused by inflammation. My central nervous system (brain) is somehow supersensitive. Fibromyalgia amplifies painful sensations by affecting the way my brain processes pain signals. Taking your arthritis medication will not help me. I cant work my pain out or shake it off. It is not even a pain that stays put. Today it is in my shoulder, my back, my knees, but tomorrow it may be in my foot or even gone. My pain is believed to be caused by improper signals sent to the brain and they are magnified 100x. Every muscle in my body shouts out in pain. I feel as though someone has unplugged my power supply.
My forgetfulness- Those of us who suffer from it call it fibrofog. I may not remember your name, but I do remember you. I may not remember what I promised to do for you, even though you told me just seconds ago. My problem has nothing to do with my age but may be related to sleep deprivation. I do not have a selective memory. On some days, I just don't have any short-term memory at all. I am constantly looking for things. I have no idea where I put down my purse, and I walk into rooms and have no idea why. Casualties are my keys which I lock in my vehicle, my list of things to remember and do, usually stay on the counter when I go out. Even if I put notes around to remind myself of important things, I'm still liable to forget them.
My clumsiness- I dont have the muscle control. If you are behind me on the stairs, please be patient. I take stairwells one step at a time. I have muscle stiffness which is worse in the morning and evenings. Sometimes when I get up out of a chair I feel like I am ninety years old. I may have to ask you to help me up. I'm creaky and I'm klutzy. I trip over things no one can see, I may step on your toes. I cant help it. I bump into the person I am walking with and I drop things and spill things because my fingers are stiff and my coordination is off. I just don't seem to connect the way I should. Hand-eye, foot-eye coordination, it's all off.
My sensitivities- I just can't stand it! "It" could be any number of things: bright sunlight, loud or high-pitched noises especially certain noises like loud television or shrill noises can make me jittery and anxious, odors... FMS has been called the "aggravating everything disorder."
My intolerance- I can't stand heat. Or humidity. I shake uncontrollably when it's cold. I don't tolerate cold, either. They stress me out and make my pain worse and I get exhausted. My internal thermostat is broken, and nobody knows how to fix it.
My depression Yes, there are days when I would rather stay in bed or in the house or die. Your sincere concern and understanding can pull me back from the brink. Your snide remarks can tip me over the edge.
My stress- My body does not handle stress well. Everyday stresses make my symptoms worse and can incapacitate me completely.
I suffer from a chronic pain and fatigue illness with no cure. I can have my good days or weeks or even months. In fact, the good days are what keep me going. I may have Fibro, but I refuse to let in control me. =)
January 4, 2012
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