When is it my fucking turn? Do I have to turn into a mean and selfish bitch? Why do I allow myself to be on everyone's back burner? at the bottom of the importance ladder. The after thought. The time killer. Doesn't anyone care about my feelings? I initiate, I ask, I put other peoples thoughts and feelings before my own. I stay quiet. I swallow the words I really want to scream out loud. I smile and say, "it's ok" when I am once again told "no", "I cant", "that has to wait" "you can't" "why do you"? "why don't you" "must you always"?..... UGH!
It really is the small things that mean the most.
The lack of these little things scream volumes.
The silence is deafening.
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