September 25, 2011

Longhorn Cattle Drive

400 Longhorns down Main Street in Ellsworth, Kansas- pretty cool. 
Cowboys in tight Wranglers on horseback- a beautiful sight to see. 
Screw drivers made with Whipped Cream Vodka and OJ for breakfast- YUM =)
My nieces horse, Rain. She's going to be a momma in the fall 

Tee-Hee!


September 23, 2011

Who do you see?

Close your eyes... picture me... What do you see?
I am only one person, with one mind, one soul, one heart...
but I have many faces.. Can you tell them apart?
Many say I have the face of an angel..strong and wise...
Look a little closer... Can you see the devil in my eyes?
In the morning when I awake... I look in the mirror and ask my self...
Which face shall I wear today? For I have many faces...
Do you see a woman torn between who she is and who she wants to be?
Do you see a mother who tries her best?
A woman who hides her fears, holds in all her tears?
Do you see a friend? A lover?
Do you wish to seek and discover?
Do you see the child inside?
Do you see my wild side?
Do you see my rage? I feel like the true me has been locked in a cage..
Can you see my confusion? Is this life just an illusion?
Can you see my dreams?
Can you hear my screams?
Do you see my pain? I feel as if I am standing on the outside,
looking in... afraid of what may come...
Yet still thru each trial, I hold my head up an smile... Acknowledge my prides..
Tell myself if I can make it thru today.. tomorrow will be okay..
So many faces... longing for embraces...

Now open your eyes... look at me and tell me... Who do you see?

September 19, 2011

thoughts...

I know I am not perfect
I know I have made my share of mistakes in my life
I know I will always in some ways handle some things wrong
but I also know that even when I make those mistakes
I make them from a good place in my heart
I do not unleash negativity that I have buried deeply in my core
because it is not there to unleash
I am not perfect... I know this
do I have negative thoughts about people
sometimes
would I unleash those thoughts onto that person
no ... I wouldn't
it's not in me to be cruel
it's not in me to be hateful
it's not in me to make wounds in people souls
in my heart I know those people will see the error's of their ways someday
I know they will grow from the experiences they have in life
I do not judge the person on their faults of their past
I do not judge the person on their faults of today
nor will I judge them on their faults in the future
I accept them ... show them love and concern
if I can't do that they are not a part of my life
in my mind and heart, people God has put in my life, he put there for a reason
it is not to judge them
it is not to abuse them with my words
its to lift them up
build them up
make them feel loved ... even when they don't do right
to try to help them see when they are not doing right
but not by angry words
but by loving and caring words
words from my heart
words that bring tears
words from my experiences
Will I be walked on to keep from speaking my mind when I am done wrong
no ...
I will defend myself
I will express my hurt in what they have said or done
will I hold it against them ... against our relationship ..
no ...
not to these people God placed in my life
I will rebuild ... fix what was broken and embrace them in good or bad
but with some people
it is very, very hard
how do I do that?
am I suppose to do that?

September 14, 2011

pictures

These damn things just wont leave me alone!

Dont hurt me, this could be you...

Waiting patiently for their snack

"nuff said !