eww

...and this is why I wear a hat at work all day...never you mind the fat, pudgy, baby hand,

 look at that teeny tiny tick. Can you imagine those in places you can't see? 

I try not to think about it and they're the reason why I rub myself down every night. ;)

once in a blue moon with blue eyes...

I'll share a secret. 

Will you?

moon proverbs

Pale Moon doth rain, Red Moon doth blow; White Moon doth neither, Rain nor snow.

A dark mist over the Moon is a promise of rain.

Clear Moon, frost soon.

The heaviest rains fall following the New and the Full Moons.

The Full Moon eats the clouds away.

A New Moon and a windy night, Sweep the cobwebs out of sight.

A Red Moon is a sure sign of high winds.

And should the Moon wear a halo of red, a tempest is nigh.

Many rings around the Moon signal a series of severe blasts.

A single ring around the moon that quickly vanishes heralds fine weather.

When the New Moon holds the Old Moon in its arms, 

(ring around the NewMoon) disasters occur at sea.

Sharp horns on the Sickle Moon indicate strong winds.

When the moon's horns point up, the weather will be dry.

When the Moon's horns point down, rain spills forth.

Blunt horns on a Crescent Moon presage a long spell of fair weather.

ring around the moon

That means there is a certain type of clouds in the atmosphere, which causes this phenomenon. 

You've seen pictures of the planet Saturn, surrounded by its system of rings, but would you be surprised if you looked up at night to see a ring around the moon? 

In fact, it's sometimes possible to see just this. There's even a folk rhyme about it: When there's a ring around the moon, rain or snow is coming soon. Is there really, sometimes, a ring around the moon? 

An Optical Illusion

Unlike Saturn, which has actual, physical rings, the ring you can sometimes see around the moon is merely an optical illusion. 

It's an effect of our own atmosphere that meteorologists call a "halo effect," because diffracted light rays create a halo around a bright object. 

How It Works

Moon halos are caused by tiny ice crystals that have gathered twenty thousand feet above the ground, as thin, wispy clouds. These clouds are so thin, you might not notice them at night, if it weren't for their effect on the moonlight. Incoming light rays from the moon are bent, or diffracted, by these ice crystals at an angle of 22 degrees. 

This means that in addition to the direct moonlight, you will also see diffracted moonlight in a circle 22 degrees away from the moon. This is about the distance of your fist, held at arm's length. 

Like a rainbow, this halo can even be slightly colored; red on the inside, and blue on the outside. 

Yes, it can mean that rain or snow is coming soon. Those high, wispy clouds could be the forerunners of storm clouds right behind them.

(Harumph)

chicks!

Whats happens at the bachelorette party, stays at the bachelorette party! lol! 

p.s.  -I designed the shirts :)

the passion in me

Tomorrow I begin a journal. Not just words on paper journaling... but this:

I have been wanting to do this for quite a while now. I now have the book and markers. 

I hope to get some of the mess out of my head and find me again.

I REALLY want to do this:

http://joannezsharpe.blogspot.com/p/online-classes.html

I'm selfish

I have just been struggling so much here lately...with everything.


I'm all over the place emotionally...totally unpredictable. I feel like I'm ready to give up. I feel like my fight is gone.

I try so hard to be there for everyone, and I feel like in the process of making sure that everyone else is ok and has support behind them...I get overlook'd. And, I'm sure that's not true. I'm almost positive that's not true. But it feels true.

It feels like I spend most of my day making sure that everyone else is ok but me. And it's not even that I'm complaining. No one forces me to make sure they have what they need. No one just assumes that I will be there for them. I tell them that I will be there for them. And I love them, I want them to be ok, I don't want them to hurt, I need to make sure that I am doing all that I can for them.

But I feel like I have very few people that I can turn to when I need that kind of love & support. And it's not that I am not surrounding by amazing & beautiful people. My friends are absolute angels. I don't want them to worry about me. I don't want them to take away from what they need e'cause I'm crying.

So why am a being such a fucking bitch and secretly resenting them for not being able to read my mind and just know that I need someone? I know I haven't asked for help, I know that I haven't really let on just how bad it's been. I know that all I have to do is call or text and I will have a soft place to land, I know that my friends would be there for me the way I am for them if I tell them that I need them. And I know that they don't know what I'm dealing with because they are dealing with so much themselves that I would feel guilty for taking away focus from them getting support. So what gives me the right to get pissed off over it?!

And that circles back to me hating myself...and it makes me cry more. I never use to be this person. I never use to want to put myself, my feelings, my tears ahead of anyone else. I just don't know how to deal right now, I don't even know how to like myself right now.